12.5.07

i quarrelled with my mum yeterday. a huge one. we're back fine today but i can't start with how disappointed i am with me, my mum, and mostly our relationship.
i dont understand how concern could come out so wrong, misunderstanding could lead to a bigger misunderstanding where love doesnt seem to stand at all. how can relationships seem like battles in a quarrel when both sides are losing. when quarrels are supposed to solve the problem existing between us, not solve one of us.
makes me think maybe its time to really assess all my relationships with ppl. crudely. cause i dont want such a thing that happened between me and my mum to happen again.
compromises that ultimately blow eth out of proportion, makin me feel like all those good times werent very real, cause she had been compromising. i know she didnt want to go that far, to hurt me that much. but i made her, and i got what i want. the truth. and it hurts. i dont know how to live with her anymore. i guess i gotta start learning to respect her as a mother anew. start on a clean slate.
things aren't what they seem all the time. everything around. sometimes it makes me suffocate. other times i learn to live with it.
maybe happy days have made me blinded to the crude truth. if so, its time i meet it again. escape may be sweet but never real. and anything fake is never for me.

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new back-to-school bag
get a haircut
clean room
hang up puzzle
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completing the modules quite well
find a dance partner/ new cca
practise on the piano
lose weight
find an interest in music or dance